Have you heard my new song yet? As a fun twist, I made a music video with the release!

“Back When I Believed in You” is a heartfelt song I wrote about facing the hard reality that sometimes a person (or thing) you love, trust, and believe in just isn’t who you thought they were. The version of them you once believed in no longer exists. Maybe it never did.

As painful as it is, no amount of love and support can make someone choose you. We can keep trying to force something that isn’t a fit, or we can let it go.

Sometimes we make excuses for toxic behavior, miserable living situations, and terrible bosses because we’re holding on to hope that it will change. But there comes a point when we need to wake up from the delusion and admit that the other person has made their choice.

As a Christian, this can be difficult because I believe in grace, second chances, and miracles. But I’ve learned that the Bible is also about truth. I can still believe God can change a person or situation and also admit the truth of how they really are at the moment.

Besides, we’ll never truly appreciate a miracle if we don’t first face the stark reality. And we don’t need to blindly stay in the crossfire of something chronically bad.

“Back When I Believed in You” serves as a reminder that it’s time to wake up from our delusion and face what is. Maybe that’s a relationship you’re convinced will turn around “someday” with little to no evidence the other person is even trying; maybe it’s a job you’ve told yourself will get better in 3 months for the past 2 years.

Whatever false belief you’re holding on to, choose courage and move forward in truth.

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LYRICS:

You took off for the  forest, thought you lost your wayYou took off for the forest, thought you lost your way
I was leaving breadcrumbs, to lead you back one day
You weren’t looking for me, you were thinking of yourself
Now I’m trapped inside the castle and you’re nowhere to be found

Stories from my youth, shredded with the truth
All the tales you told have finally gotten old
I dreamt that one day I would dance like Cinderella with you
But that was back when I believed
That was back when I believed in you

Now I don’t believe in fairytales, don’t even know if love is real
Cause I trusted you and then you failed
You’re no knight in shining armor, not the hero in this story
Another mountain I’ll climb over, you were never coming back for me

Caught you wrapped up in your lies and you won’t apologize
It’s messing up my mind and I’m stuck here paralyzed
I dreamt that one day I would dance like Cinderella with you
But that was back when I believed
That was back when I believed in

Someone who won’t even come home to face the mess he made, try to straighten this out
Well I’ve found a strength I’ve never known and I’m learning to be brave
I’m done waiting in my tower, I’m done waiting on coward

Should’ve danced with her while you could
Instead of trading her in for a witch in the woods
Let’s stop playing pretend, save your excuse
Cause you know that I don’t believe in you (yeah)

I dreamt that one day I would dance like Cinderella
But that was back when I believed
That was back when I believed in
Back when I believed in you